I said if I decided to leave the Winx fandom, I’d say goodbye first. Well, this is goodbye.
I don’t feel like I belong here anymore. This used to be where I’d escape to whenever I was lonely. Now, this is where I feel the most alone. Every day, I feel more and more out of place and insignificant in the fandom.
Whenever I say anything these days, it feels like it’s me vs. the world. Some fans think I’m just being different to get attention, or I’m just playing Devil’s Advocate. If that were true, I would have stopped a long time ago because it’s not worth the flak I’ve gotten.
I feel like a freak. I know I’m not the only fan with unpopular opinions, but I feel dumb for not keeping mine to myself — and for caring so much about them. All I’ve done is made myself miserable.
I’m already an unhappy person in real life. I know that doesn’t surprise anyone. Piling on the loneliness and stress I feel every time I log into the fandom now isn’t helping my mood.
Detaching from my blog is gonna be hard. I started crying last night as I thought about it. I’ve put so much time, energy, and money into it over the past nine years. Maybe it’s already served its purpose, and my feelings are a sign I’m supposed to move on now.
Contrary to what some fans might believe, I haven’t lost interest in the show. I’m excited and curious about future seasons and movies, and I’ll still look up Winx Club news from time to time. But I’ve unsubscribed from the official YouTube channels and other fan-made channels I followed.
I haven’t decided if I’m leaving for a while or for good. It might depend on what happens in the show and to Winx as a brand in the next few years. This blog will still be accessible, and my social media accounts will stay open. I just won’t be active on them.
Thank you for following and supporting me all these years. This is the first fandom I’ve been participated heavily in. I’ve met a lot of interesting people, and I’ve learned a lot about myself and how these types of communities work.
I also feel like I’ve improved as a writer. Looking back at my early blog posts, it’s like I’m reading someone else’s words. Hopefully, I can use this experience to help me achieve the goals I’ve put off so long.
Goodbye, everyone. I hope you have a safe and Happy New Year.